Vanity

One of the skits we are putting on over the next few days involves a girl ignoring Jesus and wearing different "masks" with each group she encounters. For the purpose of the high schoolers we're teaching, we chose things like vanity, drinking, sex,   material goods, etc. I was given the role of vanity, and I get her to change her clothes and wear jewelry and such to my liking. It felt like I was just playing a role, but over the past few days... I'm struggling internally with this myself. I have worked REALLY hard over the past few months to get my body to where I was semi comfortable with myself. Here, I don't get to exercise much because of lack of time, I don't get to choose what I eat or when, and I'm watching all of my hard work go straight down the drain. I'm writing this because I need prayers, big time. I am really struggling with this, and it's distracting me from my purpose here. I am past the point of tears and want to be home taking care of myself. I'm only two weeks in and my attitude is shifting negatively. I'm over sleeping on the floor and waking up with 10 new bug bites, I'm over cold showers, I'm over not working out, and I'm very over eating foods that I would never eat at home. Please pray that I can get over myself, literately, to focus fully on my God that I'm serving. 

I am so grateful for the amazing people that I'm working with, and the students I've gotten to meet this week. There is just nothing like being surrounded by Catholics and the Lord. It has been a long time since I have been able to worship the Lord with the voice He blessed me with and simply get lost in the music. There are a lot of wonderful singers here and I've thoroughly enjoyed praising Him with them. I have earned the nickname of Jasmine for breaking out into A Whole New World with one of the guys here. The Lord has also blessed our group with laughter, and if anything... I've got to be getting abs from laughing so hard that I can't breathe. Even at my weakest moments here, I will be forever blessed and forever changed by this experience. Not to mention I know that if I can survive this... I can survive camping when I get home. ;) 

Today we had the opportunity to climb the Mesa. It was absolutely beautiful!! A lot of the group just took the trail, but a few of us decided to make our own trail... straight up. :) Getting up there was difficult at times, but the view of God's beautiful creation was more than worth it. It was nice to take a break from pulling weeds and painting houses. 

Thank you Jesus for another beautiful day!